You know how it is to have a dating site. You get to talk to a lot of different guys who wanted different things oftentimes the common denominator would be hook ups or casual dating if you may and I am not naive about it. So when a guy starts asking for nudes or ask to video skype before we even chat a little I would see that as a warning sign of a Player (Fuck Boi starter pack). I mean there's some people who likes that and maybe to each is own. However personally, I don't have the tolerance much more the time to be involve with these stuff . I mean it comes with the territory not to mention the day and the age....Well some have serious intentions but you still have to be cautious of those whose too good to be true. I have been managing my expectations and I try also not to appear like a prude. So going back, I've chosen him because he was sensible enough to talk to and he never asked for nude photos and never tried to send me dick pics or anything. I see that as a good sign and because we talked everyday I became to know him better. What he's like, what his family like, his job, his schedules and you know what happens next if you talk to someone constantly and when they give you attention. You develop feelings for them right? I've also realized he's a little flawed with some baggage of he's own and that makes him legit. I mean it's not like you're truly physically attracted to a person you've never met. But yes, I felt like I do care for him and that these feelings were real and it was developed organically. So we talked about meeting up. No date or month yet, we just know we have that plan. And then right after my trip to Japan last month he asked me if I can go to Italy this May. It was too soon I know, and I have a training for work that's looming in the background. But I still said yes. I know that getting a Schengen visa is labor intensive and not easy but I still loved the idea of me and him finally together. Even though I know that was the time he wanted me there because he knows he could host me since he was in between jobs. I mean he just resigned and he has a month to spare before he join this other company in June. I tried to check the schedule of the training and it was in the first to third week of May. That means I only have a week and a few days to spend in Italy. I mean I could not just abandon my work right? And so after much deliberation we decided that I'm not going this June. He couldn't also commit as to when we can schedule again because of his new job. Then came my training, the 2 and a half weeks was draining and demanding. There's a process training and then the behavioral part is another story. This training is for the Gen 3 store of my company. It's a digitizing lifestyle experience. The pressure has taken its toll and I was stressed with the daily immersion and simulation. I've managed it yet it I was kind of expecting his presence albeit virtually. I was expecting he should at least be texting back when I texted him or he would call me when he's expected to call. But during these times he was a little unreliable. I know he's got concerns with his parents health and all that responsibilities but I notice the little changes in him. And then I have turned into quite demanding and may have pushed him further. I mean these past days our conversation was tensed, few and far between. I wanted to give him that space he wanted but at the same time I am still holding on. Maybe this is what they say about relationships being on life support.
Are we already broken? I still don't know. If not then we don't need fixing. (As of late I told him that he has his space and he can do what he wants and that I am not limiting him and so far we haven't talked). Yet the meet up is still in the middle of the spectrum. My best friend and I are planning a European trip this December and it's a long way coming. I don't know how long and how much of this I can still take but I guess patience and perseverance is the key.
Talking about the training. It was tough and you can ask about these kind of training from the staff of any Apple flagship store in Asia because they received the same curriculum for the same trainers. Mr Ricky and his team is an esteemed behavioral training team. His story about how he got the apple job was aspirational as well as inspirational. It involves meeting and shaking the hands of Steve Jobs in the past. It also made me believe in destiny playing its role in our lives . Because what's meant to happen will happen in the right time. I realized that although the training is intended for the job I know how relatable and applicable and practical it is for everyday life.
I have been more conscious about the behavioral side of purchasing when I go to shops or avail services from spas restaurants and the like.
In life indeed preparation is the key, there is no short cut and there is no cutting corners. Mr Ricky along with his team with his lectures gives us some quotes from time to time and I have learned to make quotes of my own such as " there is no elevator to success we must take the stairs" . The training made me evaluate our life and made me answer some life's big questions. I have always lived by the principle of "I can wing this" and maybe it has worked in some ways but truly I have learned that indeed we need some preparation.
I've also learned from Mr. Ricky how you need to have 3 reasons why you need to reach a goal. As I've mentioned he related the story of him
meeting Apple founder Steve Jobs. His reason for wanting to go to New York was that he wanted to visit the Statue of Liberty, the Twin Tower and the Apple Iconic Store. The twin tower was not materialized because it was after thee 9/11 when he was finally able to get there but he's got 2 other reasons and what struck of luck when he was there, Steve Jobs was also in the store, that's when he got the chance to meet him.
On my bucket list among others is to go to an Adele and Beyoncé concert, and hopefully to a Spice girls reunion. (I've already attended Rihanna and went to an international Music Fest in the country the 7107)
Go to Coachella just for the experience and Tomorrowland. I hope to do this soon so I don't get too old to look ridiculous in a music festival, live for a few months in New York and finally see the Aurora borealis or the northern lights. This one is part of the plan when we travel to Europe this December. We are already in the planning stage about where we should go. Finland is on the list because my best friends relatives live there and Italy of course. Curiously we we're the talking earlier about starting an online biz so we could finance our travel plans.
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