Because I’ve been sharing my story lots of other people opened up to me about their fair share of love and loss... I’d say my story pales in comparison. Different  strokes  for different folks as they say but the pain is probably the same. We also have different ways of coping and moving on but in the end it doesn’t even matter. ( this is like a line of a song, sorry so cliche) haha what matters is that we come out of it alive. (And kicking)  hopefully better and wiser and still hopeful and not jaded. Because there are actually 7 billion people in the world so you can restart and make another beautiful love story. Or if not, you can just love somebody really fabulous, you. Because it always start with you..

As I was going home I noticed a fury of people from the mall as well as unusually full jeepney passing by. I thought this is just like when we have some festival in the city where everyone’s out except there is no festival.  I was waiting for a jeepney in this area of the building under construction where the recent accident happened. A debris fall on this guy and actually  broke his leg. (Saw it in the news) so what are the odds... Anyways, if it’s your time it’s your time.. that’s what I always thought. (Off topic) 

Then I  thought maybe it’s just  because of graduations and moving up and recognitions from schools where families are out attending and celebrating after. 

I knew this since I live in front I f an elementary school and for the past 2 Days I would hear graduation and recognition speeches form their graduation speakers. My brothers has been tasked to be graduation speaker for this school before and I thought I will never be one someday neither does my other brother Jingle. Although will never know.. He was a consistent honor student ( all 3 of them actually) on  his grade school  and high school days. He’s always the genius type but I think that he is not reaching his full potential. My impression is that he just gets contented with the status quo and he’s not ambitious enough he could very well become a or a ceo of a company or he could run his own business. Sometime I thought about the guy in breaking bad  like he could make a meth  factory so he could earn lots of money coz he’s dying anyway. ( I mean Walter white) my brother is a chemical engineer and I’m not saying I want him to become the guy from Breaking Bad, but at least  Walter White the character was doing what he knows he’s good at. (He is a chemistry teacher if I remember right) 

And my brother he needs to have the passion and the drive . But they say success and happiness is always relative and who am I to judge his choices. I just love him that’s why I worry a lot for him as well as for his kid. (He’s not married but with a love child) 

So going back to graduation. Every parent in Facebook have been posting moving up and photos of kids with awards and medals.  The girls are all pretty with make up. I mean I don’t see that on my time. (Haha and maybe no fb yet) 

So graduation is an end and yet a beginning. But there are things in life that shouldn’t end, like friendships,  families , kindness and love.  They say that experiences and relationships are two of the most important things in life, the rest are simply noise.. So we should treasure each moment we have with our loved ones, even those which are passing by in our life. 

While contemplating this I texted my friend who’s hosting me  in Boracay  that I wanted to visit and just my luck they were in iloilo  and driving back and I was invited to go  a day after So i found myself on the best beach before it closes on the 26th. (26th is a fairly important date for me huh) Sometimes we get answers by asking. Truly we only need to ask.. (there’s a biblical verse for this: “ask and it will be given, seek and you shall find). What is the millennial alternative to this? Maybe “blessed are the curious for they shall have adventure? Anyways, i hope this still make sense.  Have a blessed week tweethearts

Xo-G 

Ps: this was writtem over a week ago.. the mood now would be : everyone’s in Coachella , im practicing gratefulness and counting everydays luttle wins, I’ve watched  “shape of water and learn how to sign language -egg and fuck You” haha, my travel is in 10’days.. looking forward 

(Disclaimer : someone said I have a mental disorder because of the stuff I write on my blog. So maybe next time I’ll write about it and not to make it light but probably go back and try to remember what ever I learned in college, my major is psychology. . 

 This is my eldest brother who was always tasked to do graduation speeches. He is now the Police Attache for the Philippine embassy in China. He’s with President Duterte in this pic.. 

Random midnight thoughts

I’ve been thingking about fairness and equality and how different these two concepts together. (This is not about feminism though) and off tangent from what I’ve been writing about lately ( you know crappy love story) sorry about that. I’ve been really negative but I’m beggining to be better again. (All the DUA Lipa soundtrack may rest for the moment) although lots of interesting things happened this past days which I have to keep for myself. I am beggining to feel like an overshare (TMI) 

and I googled - Equality” is defined as the quality of being the same in quantity, value, or status. It is the state of having a balanced social, economic, and political standing among individuals in a society despite differences in race, religion, sex, social and economic status, and culture. 

 

Fairness, on the other hand, is defined as the quality of having an unbiased disposition. It is the characteristic of being just to everyone, of treating them without discrimination or partiality. It is the absence of prejudice. The word “fairness” comes from the Old English word “faeger” which means “beauty” and the Old English adjective “nes” that form a word which means “evenhandedness.”

(Credits to google) 

In short, fair is not equal and equal is not fair.. 

And truly life is relative. Sometimes we keep on comparing based on what we think is fair. And when it comes to Love , wed ask ourselves how much love we should give? Then we ask how much love  she or he needs... what we may think is sufficient may be insufficient for the other person or what may be too little for you maybe too much for another. 

And realizing this makes us more compassionate and understanding...  I wish this coming days are better for everyone... goodnight tweet hearts... xoxo