Sam Smithing August

In my room, current mood - "inspired", (whatever that means - for lack of a better word maybe) musical scoring is by Sam Smith , the whole In the Lonely hour album, well for the past months its my sound pipe every waking moment I am in my room. Its like my soundtract for The most part of July and practically for the whole month of August.- on line of the song - leave your lover, leave him for me always makes me smile... Speaking of August I just felt like the month passed in a blur. Was it because I had a great time or is it because i just went thru the motions. Well, this month did have some highlights like the time I spent in Manila with my family and relatives and time I spent with my bestfriend. The issue weve finally resolved about some guy I have no intention of talking about since i guess he already got his proper airtime ( more than be actually deserved) but maybe My Sam smith choice of music is subconsciously related to him because I learned that this album is actually about unrequited love.. But im not dwelling with that right now since love is supposed to be free. Because this month Ive finally felt like ive truly moved on. I used to think of this line from the movie Brokeback Mountain, when I was reading reviews of some great movies that i want to watch one of these days ( the other one would be - Fight Club) I still haven't watch these movies and this line " I wish I could quit you" and I did. Maybe some people come into our lives and theyre just passing by with no intention of actually staying and thats still cool. I never saved his number on the pretense of actually having to memorize it but well maybe consciously or subconsciously I have the feeling that hes just passing. Again too much for that. On a tangent, practicing gratefulness is great but sometimes we tend to forget because of the mundaneness of the daily grind or sometimes we tend to even focus on the negative stuff that happens that usually is a result of our own doings. For the past 3 days, I have been walking in the morning with my dog. And then it occurred to me how amazing it is that I could have this time, and then I remember that blog I was following where she has this 3 things Thursday where you should think of the 3 things you are grateful about. so since it was a Friday I thought of inventing my own 5 things Friday. Right that time I actually thought of so many things its actually a lot more than 5. My dog, the breakfast i share with my parents where we can have small talks, my mom who can still sew clothes, the Catholic church of our town - where I could enter anytime and have a little prayer time . I am not Catholic but i do enter chapels and churches and thankful for these establishment that they may offer solace to anyone needing them. You know sometimes we just need a silent place and be on our own and hear our own thoughts or oftentimes to connect with our own spirituality or talk to someone we deemed as a higher being or someone we thought we could talk to as a friend. This dinner with my friend, the clothes I want to share with my friend who is leaving for abroad for a job, and the list goes on. Speaking of friendships, I have the privilege of reconnecting with my very good old friend who is a lawyer and someone I always have very sensible conversations with. He is actually a colleague on a business trip in town. And since I am one of his closest friends I would always have lunch or dinner and drinks with him. We would talk about work and business on a minimum but we would always talk about our personal lives. I always have that crazy, funny and most often out of the box perspective and learnings from him. How he said that whatever experiences or challenges we may go thru lets just be thankful we have the opportunity of going thru them because these will make us better. I have opened up to him a few years back about my cancelled wedding and he did offered good advices I would still remember up to now. He even wrote a blog about it Me and some friends wee in tears after reading. It was a long time ago, I have very vague recollection of that experience . But I will always remember what this lawyer friend once said, and this was the time when we were in Boracay attending one of those JCI NatCon parties (maybe a little alcohol infused convo) that for compelling reasons married people should be separated. I wasn't married but once I have planned on getting there. And now it is my time to ask questions and listen to him since he is now going thru some life's transitions in his marriage. I think its one of my inherent strength or weakness if you may, because i can make people open up to me. Probably because i ask a lot of questions, or maybe my interest is genuine. Im not at liberty to discuss of course but I was a friend to him, not necessarily offering an advice but an ear to listen. And then I thought how nowadays it is a usual happening for people to separate, like they say some people even celebrate it because as they say no good marriage ever ended in divorce. I still have to attend or be invited to one of these parties though. This August i realized also how I spent too much on unnecessary things, like money for some stuff I dont need, Hello on line shopping! I was actually proud of myself for not spending much for IRL shopping in Manila but the lure of the e commerce proved too much too handle. But well sometimes, a girl needs her retail therapy. I am actually proud that i have decluttered a little bit when i sell some of my stuff on my garage sale to help my ailing cousin even just a little, it may not be substantial as to cover for her chemo or something but at least it could go some ways. how i have maybe invested emotions on things which are not really worth investing emotions on, like some friendships or some people. At the end of the day, I have the few best ones that are constant. Still at the end of the day, all these misgivings are still no matter how cliche it may sound are learning experiences. Theres always a take away as they say....so September is a looked forward to month I will be in my second home in Boracay tommeet some friends from Australia or since its the beginning of something the - ber months, the bday of my bestfriend in October, my moms bday in November and my own birthday in December. love and light!

Random thoughts

because i hate writing (cursive hand writing that is) notice my 2013 planner is almost empty.. im happy i have all these stickers i can just stick as a highlight of my day.. like im all about the beach this weekend. i wish to be able to stick a lot of happy faces, hearts, planes, cakes, beach and shopping? i wish that I can make someone happy in any way and that i can show goodness to evryone i encounter. #taleforanotherday #2014&beyond

National heroes day post

We filipinos are lauded for our being Nationalistic even faulted for it sometimes, how we support our national pride such as the boxer Manny Pacquiao, or lately our Beauty pageant winners or our singers and performers making it international. we have all sorts of holidays, such us the Araw ng kagitingan, The national freedoms day, the Edsa Revolution among others, but this is who we are. Our love for our country is inherent in most of us. We may lose our faith in our government sometimes, we feel ashamed about how politics work in our country but still i would like to believe that we have that solidarity as a people. We help each other during crises and calamities and we respond whenever we are needed. We travel across the seas abroad to find a greener pasteur but we still come back to our families and be with them just to experience christmas in the Philippines. In that note this is my "araw ng kagitingan greeting: Death is part of the job of heroes and superheroes...but for us lesser mortals we dont need to die to become a hero .. we just need to do our moral duty to serve and be an inspiration - its not how you die but what you die for that truly matters.. It doesn't take superpowers for us to be heroes for us lesser mortals its how we live and become eveyday heroes thru our acts of kindness and compassion .. happy national heros day! ( redundant much? I think so too) lol!

Fairy tales in kick ass Times

Written eons ago... We grew up loving the fairy tales our mother and grandmother would tell us or would read to us and it so cool to see movies with themes from these fairy tales like Snow White and the Huntsman, Hansel and Gretel or Goldilocks... the moral from snow white ans the huntsman * too much vanity can kill, not all apples are sweet some are laced with poison, that its not always a prince who can wake u up In ur slumber, some people in your life can come back either to hurt you or to make it amazinga, and that you dont necesarrily need some men to make a happy ending,., maybe sometimes you need 2 or 7?. (kidding) u can still be manly even if u show some real emotion becoz its not the kiss that woke up snow white but his tears... goldilocks trusted the wolf , according to my friend and my Movie partner in the past there are a lot of wolves around us they just have to look around the u belt area, the law students and lawyers but well it just him...Fairy tales will always be a part of our childhood and they may take different ways and treatments in the modern world but the essence is still the same that they are supposed to teach us moral lessons...

Losing

Random thoughts on a ramdom day... (this post was written last year after I lost another phone, I have always used apple and it was the first time I ever used an Android phone; Samsung Note 2 because I thought its useful for me because I am fond of writing. Then i lost it so i guess Im not destined to use an Android phone. I already got myself another iphone ro compensate for the loss) i lost my phone actually it was stolen, snatched to be actually specific. It was a painful loss but its also a learning experience. My first reaction was to call someone and as if it was a murphys law in action my other phone is barred from making outside call. I thought of calling the mayor who is a personal friend or my brother who is in the police force but assigned in manila with the DILG. Then i thought better of it, the mayors too busy to be bothered by my petty crime victim problem. But my brother connected me with the police of Lapaz. To be fair, they did their best in investigating. Alas, i found it so time consuming and all that process. I was presented with all the pictures of the usual prospect however, I was not able to identify properly plus I did not have the proper witnesses. I was bent on pressing charges and teach the thief a lesson because what usually happens is that these suspects just got freed when the victims recover their items and not bothering to file charges anymore. I talked to the police and some drivers and I learn a great deal about these thieves. Talking to the drivers telling me about their experiences and their passengers is like catharsis. After a few days, I actually send a message thru Fb to the mayor. This is my message: dear mayor jed, im writing as a friend asking a favor and airing my sentiment as a community member of iloilo and asking a favor considering your position. last nov 3 my phone its a samsung note 2 w a plan under globe was snatched while i was riding a jaro cpu jeepney. while i know i am a victim here i still want to take full responsibility about what happened because maybe i was careless and i was oblivious about my sorroundings. i gave open invitation to that situation. what i wanted to ask you is that i learned that these snatcher lives in san nicolas lapaz. since we know that people in that certain brgy or area and probably the brgy capt or officials are aware of this elements they somehow not exactly turning a blind eye but probably looking the other way about it. is there some way that these crimes be stopped? i know its not entirely their fault, its poverty, lack of jobs n opportunity, and all those reason. but if we cant trust the system who can we turn to? i know its a long shot but places like singapore, hk even davao virtually dont have these kinds of crimes. is there a way that you could probably have a dialogue with residents their officials, the police, and other agencies to address issues of theft and snatching esp on the streets and the public transport?... thanks! yours, gigi The mayor has just lost his brother at that time and i understand his non response , i actually sent my condolence after this message and he thank me. I think it was more of a i just want to air my thoughts. I don't like the lull of time like when i have nothing to do on the commute, not big on games but im more on checking the 3 holy trinity as they say fb, twitter ig plus I read my emails and blogs. sometimes i also write my thoughts while on the commute. its been a while since i have a similar experience. the city area is with all sorts of this flagrant characters snatchers, theives, the mandudukot" but somehow in the couple of years that i work in the same area our faces have become familiar to them and we have become also immune and as they say, they say "dont take a dump in their own backyard" but i always see a lot of these guys sellung fake or stolen iphones like it was mint candies open but sometimes peppered with some discretion. I may have lost my phone but I am still lucky. Some people experience worst someone lost their like kae defantes . I find it funny now that i even thought of writing a letter to the whoever is the snatcher of that phone. I started my letter by saying dear gentlemen who stole my phone but of course in the dialect. then i realized that these people dont need saving . ive talked to some people who knows about the activities of these people and it seems like they just look the other way. well so much for a way of life. I guess if the economy doesnt improve and that these people have access to equal opportunities such as education and career opportunities ultimately, this will still be a part of the system.